想做的事，没有去做；想讲的话，没有去讲。
每次在热闹的人群里，内心总是很空虚。
脸上的笑容都是虚伪的。
我是很喜欢想回过去，好听就是怀旧，不好听就是只会钻脚头尖的人。
人生的定义是什么？每个人都不同。。我要重新找回我人生的定义了。
normal daily life
Suddenly hv some mood to write in here...
ntg special...normal life...
feel so relaxing nw, even i got so much assignment to do...
don think about it la, enjoy life 1st...
I sitll remember...
after 1 and half month, i still rmb wat u say to me...until nw i still do not agree tat...i love u more than every thing, but u cant feel it...whether i very bc, very sleepy, i still miss u and love u so much...i cant promise u other thing, but i promise i love u, it is forever...im serious...
wish u can find ur happiness...do not cover ur feeling and keep it in ur heart...
u do not love me, never mind...but i cant control myself to loving u...m i stupid? but i don think so...
wish u can find ur happiness...do not cover ur feeling and keep it in ur heart...
u do not love me, never mind...but i cant control myself to loving u...m i stupid? but i don think so...
holiday
holiday just pass by..in this holiday, i was get a job from my fren to design a exhibition booth. it was vry challenge.bcos i hvnt done tat before..i learn so much thing of it..beside tat i also earn some money..
at the real world is totaly different in college life..we have to satisfy demand of client, every thing must force to the sale and profit.i know it is a business, sure wil be like tat..
after holiday, i feel many thing was changing, including me..ok..from nw i have 2 changer my bad habit and maintain my good habit..
Nw is my chance to fight for my life....i wan run, fly ,rush to my goal....gambateh.
at the real world is totaly different in college life..we have to satisfy demand of client, every thing must force to the sale and profit.i know it is a business, sure wil be like tat..
after holiday, i feel many thing was changing, including me..ok..from nw i have 2 changer my bad habit and maintain my good habit..
Nw is my chance to fight for my life....i wan run, fly ,rush to my goal....gambateh.
further study in New Zealand
yesterday yam cha wit fren, my senior say he mayb will further study in New Zealand after graduate...he say the course n cost of living fee is around 80k-100k...for me, it is really expensive...but i really so interested...bcos i think tis is a big chance for me to get more knowledge from other country...mayb i can tk tis chance to work at thr...i noe if i wan, my family will give full support to me... but i was owe them so many, so i cant tk their money dy...bcos tat is not a small amount....
so upset nw...i cant so selfish dy...cant jz think myself only...i noe my father bcos of me, he was give up many thing dy...he oso become old dy...i don wan give him more finance problem...n oso i don like to depend other ppl dy...i must hander the problem of myself...
so i hv to start plan it at now...i noe it is hard, but i will try my self...
so upset nw...i cant so selfish dy...cant jz think myself only...i noe my father bcos of me, he was give up many thing dy...he oso become old dy...i don wan give him more finance problem...n oso i don like to depend other ppl dy...i must hander the problem of myself...
so i hv to start plan it at now...i noe it is hard, but i will try my self...
something to say
long time dint post blog dy...bcos no mood to post and nth to say...
today i wan say smth bout my feeling...about a girl...i really so confuse about our relationship...i donoe wat i need, wat i can give to her....i donoe tis is love or jz a close frenship...so confusing nw...i scare i cant make my promise to her...i scare i will hurt her....mayb i less self confident in love...
she is the 1st gal give me tat kind of feeling...i really so miss she every day n nite...some time i cant contral my self to call or sms she...she let me feel so touch, sweet and so warm...bcos of tat, i feel so pressure...i really scare i will hurt she 1 day....i oso donoe y im pressure...
i noe she jz few month only, i really don understand she...but i noe she is a good, kind and nice gal..
i think i wan give more time to our relationship...i hv to treasure tis relationship...i hv to more initiative, bcos im a man....
today i wan say smth bout my feeling...about a girl...i really so confuse about our relationship...i donoe wat i need, wat i can give to her....i donoe tis is love or jz a close frenship...so confusing nw...i scare i cant make my promise to her...i scare i will hurt her....mayb i less self confident in love...
she is the 1st gal give me tat kind of feeling...i really so miss she every day n nite...some time i cant contral my self to call or sms she...she let me feel so touch, sweet and so warm...bcos of tat, i feel so pressure...i really scare i will hurt she 1 day....i oso donoe y im pressure...
i noe she jz few month only, i really don understand she...but i noe she is a good, kind and nice gal..
i think i wan give more time to our relationship...i hv to treasure tis relationship...i hv to more initiative, bcos im a man....
a tire day
today vry tire, but happy...it was a part of yesterday i play football wit my fren until so nite...thn i bac to kl in tis early morning...rush to collage to setup the promotion design exhibition...i so enjoy for tat, bcos tis is my 2nd time exhibition...vry happy,bcos can expro my art work...thanx shanli...i expect my art work cant expro in tis time, bcos i think my art work is not perfect...finally also got chance for me to join the exhibition....i hope can join every exhibition and expro my art work....mayb i like to show off...haha...
today i go bac lukut...bcos i long time dint bac dy, n also i was promise my sister to go bac...my mother hv cook a dinner for us...wahhh..the food so nice and so long time dint eat my mother cooking dy...n long time dint drink sup dy...i like the feeling for having dinner together...thanx...
after dinner then we watch tv show together...around 8 pm then i jz go...
mother...i promise u, if got change i will go bac more..
after dinner then we watch tv show together...around 8 pm then i jz go...
mother...i promise u, if got change i will go bac more..
finally
finally every thing was done...rush up all the died line assignment dy...thn i can sleep dy...no matter the result is good or bad, it is not important...the important thing is i hv do my best dy...thn i can enjoy the cny holiday....studdenly feel so relax....huuuuuu....
after class then i go to buy my new shirt...damn many ppl at the mall...at nite eat japanese buffet wit my classmate celebration for rush up every thing....eat so much sushi and seafood...so full and satisfy....really so enjoy...
after tat then v go a very special place to yam cha...thr can c the kl view 1....so nice...at there i really can relax and enjoy...
thanx to u all friends...hv a wonderfull time wit u all...
after class then i go to buy my new shirt...damn many ppl at the mall...at nite eat japanese buffet wit my classmate celebration for rush up every thing....eat so much sushi and seafood...so full and satisfy....really so enjoy...
after tat then v go a very special place to yam cha...thr can c the kl view 1....so nice...at there i really can relax and enjoy...
thanx to u all friends...hv a wonderfull time wit u all...
cny feel
cny will coming soon dy...but donot hv any cny feel...bcos many thing was change dy...mayb i was grow up dy and someone was leave dy thn feel cny is not meaning full dy...
it becouse got many bad thing was happen at last few year and totaly change...
at nw, cny jz is a culture only...go back for dinner jz a culture not so special...it is not same like last time...got a warming cny....and so hopefully to get ang pao...but nw, hvnt tis kind of feel...
any whr, i will still continue my life journey and go bac to celeb cny...hope tis year will be more good...
it becouse got many bad thing was happen at last few year and totaly change...
at nw, cny jz is a culture only...go back for dinner jz a culture not so special...it is not same like last time...got a warming cny....and so hopefully to get ang pao...but nw, hvnt tis kind of feel...
any whr, i will still continue my life journey and go bac to celeb cny...hope tis year will be more good...
many ppl ask me y until now also don wan love some one...i donoe hw to ans them...mayb no body wan me gua...haha...
is it my problem??? i really donoe...mayb i like alone more thn couple...it is more free...actually i no a respondsible ppl...i donoe hw to care about other ppl...i jz like wat im doing...n also im moody person...smt will so playful and so crazy, but smt will so wisper...it is no easy to stay wit me..i dont like to follow other ppl...i got mine way... really bad ohhh...
i noe if i keep tis kind of habit, i will be lonely forever...but alone oso not bad la...i still hv my family and friends...
is it my problem??? i really donoe...mayb i like alone more thn couple...it is more free...actually i no a respondsible ppl...i donoe hw to care about other ppl...i jz like wat im doing...n also im moody person...smt will so playful and so crazy, but smt will so wisper...it is no easy to stay wit me..i dont like to follow other ppl...i got mine way... really bad ohhh...
i noe if i keep tis kind of habit, i will be lonely forever...but alone oso not bad la...i still hv my family and friends...
tonight i feel so relax...donoe y...jz got tis kind of feeling...actually i will become so stress de, bocouse all assignment hv to pass up at nex week and got exam...mayb i over confident...haha...jz joking...
suddenly want to drink milk, then i go to 7elevent buy a bottle of milk to drink....wahh so satisfy...
long time hvnt tis feeling dy....
ok, i wan sleep early to nite and hv a nice dream...then tml got power to fight for my life....
good nite....
suddenly want to drink milk, then i go to 7elevent buy a bottle of milk to drink....wahh so satisfy...
long time hvnt tis feeling dy....
ok, i wan sleep early to nite and hv a nice dream...then tml got power to fight for my life....
good nite....
collage life
let talk about my collage life....
i study at Dasein Academy of Art from 2006. around one and the half year...i choose tis collage becouse it's fee more cheaper then the other...but it do not hv the subject tat i wan...finally i choose graphic design....
i learn so many thing in tis collage, not jz design only and oso learn the real life at social...after i touch gd, i get many fun and interesting thing...because gd is a crazy and creative subject...until nw i oso dint regret to tk tis subject...sometime got many assignment to rush and so difficult....it will make me so stress...but i noe it is a way to anneal me...jz enjoy it...
beside that, got many coursemate were walk along with me...thanx alot who were alway help me...without u all i will lifeless....i will not forget u all de....
i study at Dasein Academy of Art from 2006. around one and the half year...i choose tis collage becouse it's fee more cheaper then the other...but it do not hv the subject tat i wan...finally i choose graphic design....
i learn so many thing in tis collage, not jz design only and oso learn the real life at social...after i touch gd, i get many fun and interesting thing...because gd is a crazy and creative subject...until nw i oso dint regret to tk tis subject...sometime got many assignment to rush and so difficult....it will make me so stress...but i noe it is a way to anneal me...jz enjoy it...
beside that, got many coursemate were walk along with me...thanx alot who were alway help me...without u all i will lifeless....i will not forget u all de....
a letter to my father
hi daddy...
long time dint accompany wit u dy. even i go bac home i oso less time to talk to u...bcos the timing is not good...when i stay at home u go to work, when u stay at home i was go out....mayb i really wan to write a letter to u...haha....
every time i went bac i oso saw u look more older..mayb i long time dint see u dy....i noe u r so lonely without mom, but i really cant go bac every time....sorry dad...but don be afraid, sure i will invite u to live wit me when i bought a house....i will not leave u alone....
i so proud to be ur son, but i not a good son...thanx a lot to u n mom to let me live in tis wonderful family...so appreciate it..if not u, i oso donoe wat i will be...i think will be sam sing.....hope can be ur real son in eternity....
u oso give fully support to me n dint oppose wat i wan to do...i noe u disagree wat i study nw, but u dint oppose it...i study design not mean i don like to study...im so serious to wat i doing...i will let u proud of me in one day.....dad, pls don worry about me...i noe wat i doing n my plan....
wish u healty and happy alway...u r a best father and i love u so much....
long time dint accompany wit u dy. even i go bac home i oso less time to talk to u...bcos the timing is not good...when i stay at home u go to work, when u stay at home i was go out....mayb i really wan to write a letter to u...haha....
every time i went bac i oso saw u look more older..mayb i long time dint see u dy....i noe u r so lonely without mom, but i really cant go bac every time....sorry dad...but don be afraid, sure i will invite u to live wit me when i bought a house....i will not leave u alone....
i so proud to be ur son, but i not a good son...thanx a lot to u n mom to let me live in tis wonderful family...so appreciate it..if not u, i oso donoe wat i will be...i think will be sam sing.....hope can be ur real son in eternity....
u oso give fully support to me n dint oppose wat i wan to do...i noe u disagree wat i study nw, but u dint oppose it...i study design not mean i don like to study...im so serious to wat i doing...i will let u proud of me in one day.....dad, pls don worry about me...i noe wat i doing n my plan....
wish u healty and happy alway...u r a best father and i love u so much....
hope you can pull through
yesterday i hear a bad news from my lovely friend...she say her cant c anything dy...maby will become blind....it is effect by diabetic.....suddenly i be stunned when hear this...omg, why a kind person will become like tis....so sad about tis....
hi honey
Pls don give up urself, all of us will give fully support to u....u r not lone to face it, v will accompany wit u alway...no matter wat happen, u r still is my lovely friend and honey....hope ur operation will be success.... if u need any help jz contact me, ok?
hi honey
Pls don give up urself, all of us will give fully support to u....u r not lone to face it, v will accompany wit u alway...no matter wat happen, u r still is my lovely friend and honey....hope ur operation will be success.... if u need any help jz contact me, ok?
feel so whist
yesterday after class i go back hometown...go back to do some housework, because cny is coming soon...when i reach back is too later then i do housework at the nex day....when i weak up, everybody are not at home.....then i clean up every thing and mop the floor....suddenly feel so whist, if my mother still at here then v will clean the house together, but now is jz myself doing only...i not feel so hard to do it, but feel whist....so miss tat time to work wit my mother....but all is gone.....
actually i not going back, bcos i got so many assignment hv to rush.....but i remember my mother say must make the house clean any time, but dint do tat...so sorry mom, i dint do wat i was promise to you....but tis time no matter how busy, i oso wan go bac clean up the house before cny...
cny is not meaningful at all bcos without u and grandma....every festival coming i oso feel cool n whist....it is not tat happy thn before....
actually i not going back, bcos i got so many assignment hv to rush.....but i remember my mother say must make the house clean any time, but dint do tat...so sorry mom, i dint do wat i was promise to you....but tis time no matter how busy, i oso wan go bac clean up the house before cny...
cny is not meaningful at all bcos without u and grandma....every festival coming i oso feel cool n whist....it is not tat happy thn before....
so free
suddenly feel so free at here..bcos i can write wat i wan at here...write someting about my life...
today really tire, bcos i walk around the kl, from pudu walk to sg wang and walk to klcc...just find the assignment material...when i walk at the street i feel so free...i like tis feeling...
sometime lonely life oso not bad..i dont hv care about other ppl and do wat i love...i dont like control by other ppl...i enjoy tis kind of life...i noe u will say im so selfish, but nvm, i dont care...bcos i m live for myself...
i like to be a vagabond...i wan to go around the world...tis is my dream too....
today really tire, bcos i walk around the kl, from pudu walk to sg wang and walk to klcc...just find the assignment material...when i walk at the street i feel so free...i like tis feeling...
sometime lonely life oso not bad..i dont hv care about other ppl and do wat i love...i dont like control by other ppl...i enjoy tis kind of life...i noe u will say im so selfish, but nvm, i dont care...bcos i m live for myself...
i like to be a vagabond...i wan to go around the world...tis is my dream too....
2007 journey
many thing was happen in this year...got good and bad....the bad thing is my 2nd brother was died in an accident...it influence my family so much..actually i not too close wit tis brother, bcos we come on from 2 different family , but tis happen was hurt my heart ....feel so sad about it ,but still wan continual my life...
the most of my time was rush assignment in this year...but i not really hardworking , sometime will be so lazy....sometime will fell so stress and tension...i learn much thing in collage...i wan tk tis chance to thanx to Mr Soo and Shanli...they r good and responsibility lecture and i so respect them...
i have knoe many friends in the collage...thanx to u all alway helping me and come along wit me...the most happy time is wit u all...
i stay in kl almost 1 and the half year...i oso become custom to stay at here....im so lucky ,bcos i was get some good housemate...i feel so warm and friendly wit them...it look like a family...
the most of my time was rush assignment in this year...but i not really hardworking , sometime will be so lazy....sometime will fell so stress and tension...i learn much thing in collage...i wan tk tis chance to thanx to Mr Soo and Shanli...they r good and responsibility lecture and i so respect them...
i have knoe many friends in the collage...thanx to u all alway helping me and come along wit me...the most happy time is wit u all...
i stay in kl almost 1 and the half year...i oso become custom to stay at here....im so lucky ,bcos i was get some good housemate...i feel so warm and friendly wit them...it look like a family...
my working experiences
the 1st job in my life is kitchen worker..i work as part time at my relative restaurant after PMR...actually im work as a waiter but my mother force me to work at kitchen..mayb she wan me to be a cook chef..1st time i go in the kitchen, i feel so suffer..bcos thr is so hot, oily, dirty and so strange..after i work few week then i feel so interesting..i can learn so many thing..but sometime get scold and injured...it is so hard, i keep remind myself cant give up(other ppl can do why i cant)...after 2 month, i start from nth until i noe how to cook and i love to cook...thanx to all the senior teaching me...except its i oso noe about the sistem in a restaurant...so every big day live cny, mother/father day, national day......and most of the public holiday i oso on work...so cham....bcos the most many ppl time is on holiday...so my holiday will be working day...tis kind of life is continuum in 3year...
the 2nd job is MLM...i work in DCHL (LB) company from the end of form5 (around september)....my sister n my brother influence me to join in...after i join, i get damn many traning and learn many skill like hw to talk, act,psychology, planning, and hw to be a leadership and handle my team...i noe tis still will help me in the future...everyday i oso wear so formal to work...and oso meet so many different stager of ppl...everybody give so many support to me, i think bcos im the most small in the company...i never see before a company's meeting got 2k to 3k ppl but i can see n join in DCHL...
i learn and get so many thing from thr, but i oso lose many thing in the same time...i lose many friends and my time wit family...i oso lose my personality when i run this business...but i noe if wan to success in this business, sure wan 2 give up those thing....and i oso too stress at the same time...im forcing myself to score the goal setting tat i set...i hv give up all the thing i like to do...every morning wake up so early and find target or go office and bac house at midnight...stress until cant sleep every nite...tis kind of life was continuum 2 month then i hand off tis business...i totaly work in 6 month in DCHL...i never regret to join in, bcos i was learn so much thing about business from thr...it oso make me grown up so fast...
after nasional service, i work in a advertising company...i think i can learn some design skill and see the advertising life in thr, but i so disappointant to it...it not really a advertising company, it jz a advertising production only...thr do not hv any designer, accountant and jz a only one worker, tat is me....bcos it is a family business...everyday i work wit they 3 brother mean 3 boss la...i dint hv a fix work to do, sometime i work as a office boy to type out document, sometime i work as technician to make billboard, signboard and printing, sometime will go outstation and work under the sun....bcos of tat, i learn so much of production....tis is very good job and good experience, but tis is not i want. then i resign after 1 and the half month...the reason tat i tell the boss is i wan continue study. so sorry, i lie i will work more then 1year....
after i resign, got 2 more month then study...at tis 2 month, i hv work some part time job...i work as hotlink promoter, sale light stick in the concert....
at my college time, oso got do some part time to earn some money....i work at pc fair, it is invited by laoda to sale digital cam...my sale oso nt bad, but i use unmorality skill to sale the cam...bcos i oso cheated by the boss...
at holiday i oso work as credit card saler at PJ..it is invite by shan...i watch she got very good income from tis job then i wan work for it...but it is not as easy as then my imagine...every day work at 12 hour and non stop to find target...every time look like a dog to catch the customer and give them reject...but got customer to sign up the card then will feel so happy...i wan to thanx to shan and suan,bcos they was teach me so many thing n support me....when my term start and hv rush my assignment then i stop dy...
beside tat, is got get some photographic job to do...i oso do some sampling job ...at nw i do not working and jz focus on my study....if got job i oso will do de....so tis is my working experience, not too much but i learn so much...
the 2nd job is MLM...i work in DCHL (LB) company from the end of form5 (around september)....my sister n my brother influence me to join in...after i join, i get damn many traning and learn many skill like hw to talk, act,psychology, planning, and hw to be a leadership and handle my team...i noe tis still will help me in the future...everyday i oso wear so formal to work...and oso meet so many different stager of ppl...everybody give so many support to me, i think bcos im the most small in the company...i never see before a company's meeting got 2k to 3k ppl but i can see n join in DCHL...
i learn and get so many thing from thr, but i oso lose many thing in the same time...i lose many friends and my time wit family...i oso lose my personality when i run this business...but i noe if wan to success in this business, sure wan 2 give up those thing....and i oso too stress at the same time...im forcing myself to score the goal setting tat i set...i hv give up all the thing i like to do...every morning wake up so early and find target or go office and bac house at midnight...stress until cant sleep every nite...tis kind of life was continuum 2 month then i hand off tis business...i totaly work in 6 month in DCHL...i never regret to join in, bcos i was learn so much thing about business from thr...it oso make me grown up so fast...
after nasional service, i work in a advertising company...i think i can learn some design skill and see the advertising life in thr, but i so disappointant to it...it not really a advertising company, it jz a advertising production only...thr do not hv any designer, accountant and jz a only one worker, tat is me....bcos it is a family business...everyday i work wit they 3 brother mean 3 boss la...i dint hv a fix work to do, sometime i work as a office boy to type out document, sometime i work as technician to make billboard, signboard and printing, sometime will go outstation and work under the sun....bcos of tat, i learn so much of production....tis is very good job and good experience, but tis is not i want. then i resign after 1 and the half month...the reason tat i tell the boss is i wan continue study. so sorry, i lie i will work more then 1year....
after i resign, got 2 more month then study...at tis 2 month, i hv work some part time job...i work as hotlink promoter, sale light stick in the concert....
at my college time, oso got do some part time to earn some money....i work at pc fair, it is invited by laoda to sale digital cam...my sale oso nt bad, but i use unmorality skill to sale the cam...bcos i oso cheated by the boss...
at holiday i oso work as credit card saler at PJ..it is invite by shan...i watch she got very good income from tis job then i wan work for it...but it is not as easy as then my imagine...every day work at 12 hour and non stop to find target...every time look like a dog to catch the customer and give them reject...but got customer to sign up the card then will feel so happy...i wan to thanx to shan and suan,bcos they was teach me so many thing n support me....when my term start and hv rush my assignment then i stop dy...
beside tat, is got get some photographic job to do...i oso do some sampling job ...at nw i do not working and jz focus on my study....if got job i oso will do de....so tis is my working experience, not too much but i learn so much...
mine dream
i hv many dream in my life, i wan to be a success person in the world..i wan to change to world..im serious..
so now i hv to set mine goal setting and planning wat i wan to do...plannig is just for me 2 noe wat 2 i wan to do, it can change anytime in any situation..but without planning i cant do anything..
1st i wan to be a top student in my college..everyone say tis is not important but for me, tis is a starting..bcos im a emulative person...i like to competition wit other ppl.. i wan get more knowledge n be a so creative person...
im study graphic design nw..tis not mean i wan to be a designer in future..it is bcos i can get more knowledge and make myself more wisdom...when i study gf i can noe so much thing..it is not just noe about design, it oso let me noe about the world...i oso learn how to promot myself... so tis is the 1st step...
after study i wan everybody noe who am i...so i hv to promot myself kau kau..i will do many event or exhibition...at the same time, i will attend many national competition...if cant win the competition i oso can learn so much thing from it...after tat, i will look for chance to japan or europe country...if don hv tis chance thn i will go to sigapore...sure i won stay in malaysia...
when i hv strength and i strong network, i will start mine enterprise...i will build up a company(still donoe wat kind of business)..i noe if wan to success, cant just to work as a job...i need to hv many conduit to success....firstly i wan build up a strong company and more competitive...i wan to let every ppl in the world know about my nameplate...
i will planning to marry after 30 year old...i think it is not too late la...before i marry sure i got ability...the minimun thing is i have a house around 200k, a car around 100k and stable income...hv a wonderful family is successful in my life...it oso my food for thought...so i hope got a family( but nt nw)...
i will planning retire at 45year old...after retire i wan go around the world...retire not mean i will leave all my work, it js can relax abit...so i have to make my business stable and will run itself without me...
i nt so cupidity, i jz wan live until around 70 year old only...it is not long lived, but i can live until 70 thn is enough...bcos i wan 2 see my next generation are grow up...
so now i hv to set mine goal setting and planning wat i wan to do...plannig is just for me 2 noe wat 2 i wan to do, it can change anytime in any situation..but without planning i cant do anything..
1st i wan to be a top student in my college..everyone say tis is not important but for me, tis is a starting..bcos im a emulative person...i like to competition wit other ppl.. i wan get more knowledge n be a so creative person...
im study graphic design nw..tis not mean i wan to be a designer in future..it is bcos i can get more knowledge and make myself more wisdom...when i study gf i can noe so much thing..it is not just noe about design, it oso let me noe about the world...i oso learn how to promot myself... so tis is the 1st step...
after study i wan everybody noe who am i...so i hv to promot myself kau kau..i will do many event or exhibition...at the same time, i will attend many national competition...if cant win the competition i oso can learn so much thing from it...after tat, i will look for chance to japan or europe country...if don hv tis chance thn i will go to sigapore...sure i won stay in malaysia...
when i hv strength and i strong network, i will start mine enterprise...i will build up a company(still donoe wat kind of business)..i noe if wan to success, cant just to work as a job...i need to hv many conduit to success....firstly i wan build up a strong company and more competitive...i wan to let every ppl in the world know about my nameplate...
i will planning to marry after 30 year old...i think it is not too late la...before i marry sure i got ability...the minimun thing is i have a house around 200k, a car around 100k and stable income...hv a wonderful family is successful in my life...it oso my food for thought...so i hope got a family( but nt nw)...
i will planning retire at 45year old...after retire i wan go around the world...retire not mean i will leave all my work, it js can relax abit...so i have to make my business stable and will run itself without me...
i nt so cupidity, i jz wan live until around 70 year old only...it is not long lived, but i can live until 70 thn is enough...bcos i wan 2 see my next generation are grow up...
smoke
actually im a smoker...less ppl noe im smoke, bcos i don wan 2 show tis act to other ppl...i scare my friend and my parent will disappointed to me...i noe tat is no good n is a bad habit, but i really cant control it...
i think im start smoke from form 5..after mine mother was pass away..bcos i think smoke will let me forget this happening...im really stupid right??im so sad about tis happen and cant forget it in my life...im so love my mother, why god hv to bring she away from me??i cant accept tis truth...
im so sorry to everybody, exspecially is my father n mother .let u disappointed...i hv think to abstain from smoke, but everytime oso fail..everytime i smoke i was feel wrong..i noe i will died in lung cancer if i keeping smoke..but nvm, i hope to died in lung cancer, bcos i wan to feel wat kind of suffer tat my mother get...or tis is a chance from me to meet my mother in heaven...mon i miss u..
i wan tk tis chance to apologize to everyone...sorry...
i think im start smoke from form 5..after mine mother was pass away..bcos i think smoke will let me forget this happening...im really stupid right??im so sad about tis happen and cant forget it in my life...im so love my mother, why god hv to bring she away from me??i cant accept tis truth...
im so sorry to everybody, exspecially is my father n mother .let u disappointed...i hv think to abstain from smoke, but everytime oso fail..everytime i smoke i was feel wrong..i noe i will died in lung cancer if i keeping smoke..but nvm, i hope to died in lung cancer, bcos i wan to feel wat kind of suffer tat my mother get...or tis is a chance from me to meet my mother in heaven...mon i miss u..
i wan tk tis chance to apologize to everyone...sorry...
wat mean is love??? for me, love is just a feeling of mine life..im a timid guy when i was love someone..donoe why??i think i will full of worries so much of thing..i admit im a craven guy when face wit love, just look like gal..i so hate about tis kind of kidney..really so fuck out...haiii....
some time im feel so lonely..so upset about it..i so thirst for fall love..some time i so jealousy the couple are so sweet and so fortunate. sometime i so dislike it, bcos i think tat people waste all the time and energy in love.. but i hvnt tis chance (mayb i dint cherish any chance of love)..i really so stupid, just like a pig..im a passiveness guy..if u don force me then i will do nth..
every time when i love somebody, i will noe hw to do for it..but i hvnt done it before..
actually i just have a amatory until nw..just a puppy love and semplice love..but i dint cherish tis relationship, finally we was break up dy...so regret about it...
some time im feel so lonely..so upset about it..i so thirst for fall love..some time i so jealousy the couple are so sweet and so fortunate. sometime i so dislike it, bcos i think tat people waste all the time and energy in love.. but i hvnt tis chance (mayb i dint cherish any chance of love)..i really so stupid, just like a pig..im a passiveness guy..if u don force me then i will do nth..
every time when i love somebody, i will noe hw to do for it..but i hvnt done it before..
actually i just have a amatory until nw..just a puppy love and semplice love..but i dint cherish tis relationship, finally we was break up dy...so regret about it...
secret
suddenly i got so much think to talk...but i donoe hv to talk to who, then i write down here and show my feeling to the world...actually i got so much friends, but donoe why i hvnt talk my secret thing to them..it not because i not trust them, it is because i donoe hw to talk about it..i m a talker, alway talk about rubbish..the secret keep in my heart, mayb is a better way for me..anyway i cant talk about it but i can note down here...thanx to review it...
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